I have been struggling lately with being an adult. I remember when I was little and just couldn't wait to be independent and have my own money and not have to answer to anyone! But now it just feels like I am trapped, I am suffocating with no way to get out.
The bills are piling up and so is my workload! Sometimes (more recent than ever) I find myself just laying on the couch or laying in bed and just thinking to myself, ugh is this all we live for?
I got married, I had the kid and I have the job, but still it always seems as if something is missing. I work to keep the lights on and food in the fridge but then on my days off I am trying to catch up on laundry or the dishes or trying to spend time with Alyssa and Cole.
I feel like the weekends are shorter but the work week is longer.
How does that happen?
Cole and I got a desktop computer recently and we decided to buy Sims 4. Guys, it was like a flash back to my high school days. I use to play the sims all the time, I love that game!
So I built my cute little house (with the cheat code of course cause who has time to make all that money in the beginning) I made Cole, Alyssa and I. I got our sims jobs and Alyssa was in school and life seemed so easy ya know? Then my sim got pregnant and we had a little boy and still life seemed so easy.
Then my sim got pregnant again with TRIPLETS!!! I physically started getting overwhelmed with the crying babies and the meal times while caring for my sim and spending time with the other children! How in the world was I suppose to handle that!!
I ended up having my sim quit her job to stay home to care for the triplets and I still had to hire a nanny!!
I thought to myself ohh my gosh this is overwhelming!!
That is a video game people!!!
I started feeling the same emotions and feelings for my fake family in the sims that I kinda did in my real family now! Why do we work so hard to get so less? Is this really what life is about?
Cole and I had the idea of moving again for a job opportunity that had appeared. All I could think about was, Is this job going to make me happy? Is this move going to make me happy?
What am I doing wrong in my life that is causing so many deep and hard feelings?
I just don't have a clue people, still I know that I have great days where I am over the moon and I know that I have awful days when I just want to hide in my bedroom! But I think that is pretty normal.
Do you all ever feel the same or am I just crazy?!
Please help me either way lol