This Bundle of Joy

Okay...so I have to admit to a couple things here......

1.) In the past I was Anti-Child!!

2.) I am now 100% CHILDREN!!!

So....how did this change happen I honestly dont even know.....well I do but I dont!!

The moment I found out that I was pregnant I was honestly excited for about 5minutes then I was terribly nervous, anxious, worried, afraid, scared, and just 100% discouraged!!!

But I am telling you the moment I felt Alyssa's tiny foot kick my belly I was overwhelmed with this nurturing emotion that has never gone away!!

I am soo thrilled, excited, and joyful that this is my future now!!

I am a mother!!! And proud of it!!!

Although...it did not happen how I thought it would I wouldn't change anything!!

Things aren't always going to be picture perfect and I know that now!!!

The only thing I can do is strive for happiness and health!!!

Im not just taking care of myself anymore and quit frankly I would put Alyssa before me anyday!!!

The Brat Face

So.....for those of you that know me and know my daughter Alyssa Im sure you would say that she is sweet, smart, gorgeous, well behaved, etc..

Let me tell you this little girl is a hoot!

Honestly....

Alyssa will be doing something in the living room while Im in another room and she will start off being really really quiet.....then you hear it....the laugh

Alyssa will laugh hysterically like a hienna!! Thats when I know that she is up to no good! Then I go in the living room and Im like ALYSSA WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

Thats when it happens......

This is what I like to call "The Brat Face"

Its like she knows what she is doing is wrong but yet she wants to look at me like that because I caught her!! LOL 

Girl you got yourself in trouble cause your hienna laugh!!!

Everytime she looks at me like this I just laugh!! I cant even help it she is just too darn cute!!!

Ahhhhhhh Nap time......

As much as I love Alyssa I do not like those 8:00 am wake up screams or cries! 

As joyful as it is to wake up everyday breathing and healthy and glance over to the crib and see her face....I work 3rd shift and 8:00 am is way too early on my days off!

I get up all groggy and tired try to get her to eat some breakfast and then count down the hours and minutes for NAP TIME!! One of the best times of the day is when I can just veg out on the couch for an hour or two (If I'm lucky) and watch some TV.. get online.. just do whatever!!

 I guess with me being so young nap time makes me feel somewhat normal! I know, I know, nap time doesn't last forever but I'm taking FULL ADVANTAGE!!! While I still can!!